I'm Still Alive

Yes, unfortunately I am surviving. Why do I sound so glum? Because being an adult sucks. Paying bills suck. Buying necessities suck. Having useless insurance sucks. And to top it off family drama makes life suck in the worst way possible. I'm trying to avoid it as much as possible. I naively think that if I don't stay in contact with them, then the pain will slip past me like goat blood above a door during a plague. I'm burying myself in work and mindless distractions. I'm doing better than last semester because I'm actually studying because I'm scared of losing my financial aid and I would really like to get out of here soon and start my life somewhere new. I want to be successful and travel. I want to start a dozen businesses and live of the excess profits. I want to live a luxurious life style and maybe get married. I wish I had more confidence in myself and my future. My current goal is to bring up my GPA so I can study abroad and pay off all my bills this year. Hopefully in a few months I can start saving for paying off my student loans when I graduate. I really need to get a driver's license soon before my age gets too embarrassing. Right now I'm suffering from stomach flu symptoms, insomnia, and muscle fatigue. I'm trying to get back in shape so I can gain more confidence where prettier clothes. I wish it easier to avoid all the tasty bad foods but they're so cheap and appetizing in the advertisements. Maybe I should go on an oatmeal/ramen diet so I can shrink my waistline and save money? Or maybe I should try the low carb diet? It's working for my family. I just really hate the nasty bowel side effects for the first couple weeks. Grossness. I will no longer make promises in my blog so that none shall ever break plus its too much pressure to dictate my update schedule. I'm a college student with lots of priorities and the majority of them consists of eating, sleeping, and watching stuff on the internet. I am an internet junkie and my fave places to visit are Facebook, Crunchyroll, Hulu, and Youtube. I'm wondering if I should start a food blog but wouldn't that be overdoing it? I've started so many blogs already that I can't seem to keep track of. I have a tumblr account strictly for my photography hobby addiction. I had a xanga but forgot the password to it. I know there's others out there they just slip my mind. But I'm trying to keep this blog alive because its soothing. I kinda would like to have fans but at the same time I guess its good that no one really knows my blog is alive because it feels like a private journal. The kind you buy at a cheap store with no form of security on it what so ever. So open but no one cares to look at because you're so open already to people in person. I'm not showy, just friendly. Well, I'm bored now. Good night Blogspot or whatever your name is now.