Death by Bleach and Pinesol

   This weekend was so stressful for me. I started moving into my new apartment yesterday and I finally finished late today in the afternoon. My muscles ache all over my body. My apartment has three floors and no elevator. Who ever designed these apartment buildings were either fucking stupid or cheap as hell not to include fucking elevators. I'm definitely going to lose a lot of weight this summer. Me and my boyfriend made up yesterday. I'm not sure what happened exactly. It's like he melts my anger away so I can never be angry at him for very long when we're together but its so easy to be mad at him over the phone. Why is that? And today I'm starting to get frustrated with him again because it feels like he doesn't want to talk to me. I called him twice today and he gave me lame ass excuses for why he couldn't talk to me. Why can't he just be honest with me damn?! I do not trust him anymore. How can there a long lasting relationship with out trust? Sometimes I feel like he's just playing me. Am I the fool in love with a jerk? I don't want to be a stereotype. I thought about going on a break so I could just focus on myself but how long would that be? Separation can either break the relationship or make it stronger but most of the time it ends in disaster when someone starts to fall for someone else. Of course that's already happened but I don't want it to happen again...