So yeah, I didn't keep up with my blog as much as I originally wanted too but life happens, frustrations mount, and homework piles up. Thankfully I finished my final exams on Thursday. Currently I'm waiting to move into my new apartment and for summer I classes to start. I'm taking math for summer I and an online history course for summer II. I'm stressed out over the slow process to move and get financial aid for summer classes. But what's mostly bothering me right now is my relationships. My relationship with my family is strained and the love of my life is slowly shifting me to the backseat in his life right behind his best friend. I feel like I give so much and he returns so little. I don't feel important and neglected. I have doubts of my relationship lasting the summer and in a way it kinda feels like I'm just poking a dead animal with a stick hoping it will still move. I feel like I did everything right as a good girlfriend but it isn't enough. Why does this love have to be so freaking complicated?! Its ridiculous. I love him with all my heart and I know I will always love him but he's too selfish to give me what I need in a good boyfriend. My hearts so much just thinking about him. I want this pain so badly to end.
sleeping with a broken heart,
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